Adulthood is Ugly.
Its staring at me, and suddenly showing me the different colors of fear, insecurity, betrayal,there are more tears, the ones that make your heart hollow.
Its ugly, because friends reveal their dark side.
their ability to choose themselves so much, that your heart is wrecked by their lifeless words
Its ugly because people you've loved only hear you, they don't listen
their inability to feel the meaning of the words that you've carefully chosen
Its ugly because they tell you your dreams are impractical and difficult
their lack of belief in you, even when you are struggling to breathe and walk the tight rope all by yourself
its an ugly adulthood because childhood was as scary, but trusting
There was no fear, even in the absence of insecurity,childhood laughs and adulthood cowers.
Its ugly because it makes me hunch, a few inches inside my self, as a child had me taking longer strides, quickly into the wind
Its ugly, this adulthood, or maybe its the ugliness around me, people with their beautiful smiles and bodies, perfect shapes and voices, ones that steal and devour at my soul, my smile, my strides, the sprint in my walk, the spark in my eyes.
